I have never wanted to disappear more than I do today. Dh has won. There is nothing left to fight for anymore. I was so hopeful that things were finally turning around. He is just like this huge dark force. It’s over. I just deactivated my fb account. I am quitting my job when I get back and am going to go on government assistance until I can get a job in PA.
I can’t figure out another option. He says I’m irresponsible and unreliable and selfish. He doesn’t want them with me anymore during the week. Dh’s has caused so much drama, that the kids want nothing to do with me. I can’t let them go, I just can’t. I feel like I’m going to be sick.
If the kids ever want to come over which I really doubt they will now – I can be home.
I am working right now, I took some high school kids to a concert in Vancouver – I’m just chaperoning so I didn’t make the arrangements.
Well there was a mess up and we didn’t make the the ferry & well Dh pounced on this opportunity of me not making it home tonight to tear me to shreds. Who am I even kidding. I’m so alone. I don’t have any help. I can’t survive him anymore, I give up. He has taken my whole world and I just can’t fight anymore. It’s just over.
Dh has made my own flesh and blood not want anything to do with me. This is just too much for one person.
Where are you God?