It’s around eleven am and I am locked in my room, trying not to scream. My kids BOTH decided to not go to school today. I have no idea how to make them listen. I don’t even know what to type. There are so many things that I can’t tell anymore where to begin. I am not doing a very good job. I can’t do it on my own. I hate my DH but sitting here this morening I would rather live in a loveless marriage that was killing me slowly than to lose my kids to him that way. At least in my marriage I knew my kids would be with me always. Today I am questioning everything. Does good really win? I am really not sure at the moment. I am starting to suspect that EVIL is winning, and has always won. Am I failing as a mother?